A Mom's Note

Gosh! The lil one just went to bed and it's already midnight here. She actually was in bed at around 10PM when all of the sudden she woke up screaming. Seemed she was having a bad dream or might be her gums were bothering again. I consoled her and she calmed down. After a few minutes, she started screaming again while yawning. She so wanted to go right back to sleep but she couldn't. After an over an hour battle, she finally able to put herself back to sleep. I put her again in her bed when she settled down. Did not react or cry either when I closed the door, leaving her alone in her bedroom. So here I am, ranting again. Free from the tiny hands of the lil one. Nobody pulls me, pinches me and takes my PC away from me. It feels good to be in a quite room. This is the best time to update my blog and take care of my online tasks. I have done dropping EC by the way, submitted one paid post and still composing for the next. Letting this entry off now. Have a good night everyone!

While composing this entry, the 'lil one has just finished crying. She was fine when I put her to bed but cried when I left the room. I think she doesn't want to be alone. For the past few days, she changed a lot from being a good girl to a high-tempered toddler. She used to sleep early all by herself with no help from me and was so easy to handle with less tantrums, now she tends to be the boss wanting to do her will. Though my conscience is suing me right now for letting her cry to sleep, she needs to be corrected and it is my responsibility to take her to the right path. I can not let everything that she wants to happen. As much as I want to spoil her, I can not give that much. I am just suppressing my feelings not to feel pity on her, yes, she is fine! Arggg...it is hard to be a parent. No more babies for me!